I keep waiting for it to get easier to leave her in the morning. It's not. In fact it's getting harder and harder. Hopefully poithings will be easier next school year because i'll be full time then and right now work is the worst 5.5 hours out of every day. 6 work days until spring break, 49 until summer....not like I'm counting or anything....

letter to myself one year ago...

1. The Clomid WILL work. You are about to conceive a beautiful little girl.
2. Why don't you go make love to your husband now, just because you want to. Not because your temperature is up, not because the ovulation test says to, but because he is there and you can.
3. Whatever time you are reading this, go to bed. I don't care if it is 10 in the morning. Go to bed. Stay there. Sleep until you can't sleep anymore, and then sleep some more. You'll look back on this memory one day and smile.
4. Start saving up for a nice camera, the phone is only /so/ good (Though it is really convenient)
5. Same goes for a camcorder (note to current self, still need camera and camcorder)
6. Don't just order flats and covers. Sure they're the cheapest but pocket diapers are really convenient at 2 am
7. It's amazing how many things babies don't need

to be continued...........

Quote of the night

"Honey give me a second, I'm trying to wash the puke out of her eye lashes"

	The back of my baby's neck always smells a little like urp, even after a shower (though breast fed urp smells like normal formula). Odd as it may be, I think I will always associate this smell with baby snuggles:-)

	Random thoughts. Baby girl was just all out screaming. Offered her the boob, only worked for a second. Cuddled her up in a blanket, nope. Offered boob again, nope. Bounced, nope. Burped/patted, nopw. Checked diaper,dry and not pinching. Offered boob, nope. Cuddled in different blanket, nope. Offered OTHER boob, took two sucks and fell asleep. What the hell little girl? Afraid it went missing???

Brianna's first Valentine's day

(yes I know she makes goofy faces, give her a break she's only 6 weeks fine muscle control comes later)

Alex and I don't do a whole heck of a lot for Valentine's day. Usually we stay home and cook a nicer than normal dinner together. This year he had class, so we might do something this weekend (I have a class though so meh). We have been hoping to go out to the farm and take 1month pics of Brianna for a while now, but every day that we have set aside to do that, the weather has been blech! Set aside in the pile of clothes for our little momarazzi photo shoot were a couple of outfits for Valentine's day. Since I hadn't taken any pics of her in them yet, I decided to whip out the cell phone for posterity. She didn't wind up in them long, we got booby juice on the first one, and the second one was just way too big, but it was still cute to see her all dressed up for her first "holiday".

Our morning started at 530. Guess I kind of forgot that if I get her to fall asleep early, I should fall asleep early myself because that means she'll be up early. Woops!

When I was trying to take the picture at the beginning of this post Alex was reading the news on his phone. She has recently started to REALLY notice differences in light and was fascinated by his phone. She kept trying to flop herself over towards him to see.

After our 530 wake up we all fell asleep at 830 and didn't wake up again until 1030. Alex went off to feed the horses and baby girl and I had breakfast, and she was on to outfit #2!

Now I don't know what got her in such a happy mood, but she was kicking, "talking", and smiling up a storm. The only thing I can think that she was looking at was the contrast between the white floor fan and my dark dresser. Who knows, but she was a happy girl!!

The rest of the day was low key, eating, napping, eating, and napping. Eventually I took off the Love sleeper because it was just too big, she she finished the day in her fluffy blanket (you can't see it in any of the pictures but she rocked her Valentine's day diapers as well. Started with a red Diaper Rite pocket, then a purple Thirsties AIO, and the rest of the day was in flats and her pink Thirsties cover)

Two sickies